New Year, Better Me

So I thought I would do what half the world will be doing today and planning how to make myself a better person in this New Year.  Here’s hoping I can stick to it  These are just a couple of things I WILL improve on…

1.       Eat healthier.

Now here I should say I want to lose weight (this is what I really mean) but I think that if I just ate healthier, that would kill two birds with one stone.  I don’t eat large portions, I don’t like the feeling of being over full but I just seem to put weight on very slowly, over a long period of time. If I diet, I can lose about 10lb in so many weeks but I hate dieting, it just makes me crave rubbish. I don’t gain weight quickly once I have stopped dieting so I guess if I eat healthier and move more, I should find my balance, right?

2.       Be more organised

This is a biggy for me. I’m an Aquarius and I live up to my star sign by being a huge procrastinator. I drive myself insane by leaving things till the last minute, instead of just getting on with whatever task needs doing. I have been getting a little bit better with this since starting Uni but nowhere near enough to be a fully functional “normal” person.   I plan to be the queen of organisation by the end of 2012… well, OK, maybe not the queen but princess?

3.       Be happy with my lot

I find it very difficult to just be happy. Overall I am happy, I just have a tendency to think of all the bad things in life, what has gone wrong and what might go wrong. It isn’t something I can change so why worry about it? I will be the big 30 in February and I am completely dreading this fact. So much so, that I cried for two days when I turned 29. I know I am going to cry again on this Birthday, it really is inevitable, but so much has changed in the last 12 months that I can begin to actually appreciate what I have in life. I have gone through so much in my 29 years of life and I can’t deny that it has made me a stronger person. I won’t bore you with details but I think, I’m bloody fantastic to have got through it all, return to education and then accomplish what I thought would always be a distant dream.  (Ha! this is becoming rather therapeutic)

4.       Give up the smoking.

I hate admitting to being a smoker. It’s a disgusting habit. You smell, other people have to smell stale cigarettes on your clothes and breath. It discolours your teeth, it costs a fortune, I freeze by butt off outside just to smoke and it gives you cancer! So why the hell do I do it? Well, I had my last cigarette at 3:30am this morning. (We stayed up with the children till silly o’clock, playing board games and Wii Dance)  I’m hoping this is the last time I ever have to give up. I’m usually OK up until week 4 and then I stupidly tell myself that I can start smoking as I can obviously give up easily again. NO NO NO NO NO NO More!

Anyhow, there are few more resolutions that I would love to be able to do, craft wise, but they are beyond my reach until we move house. At the moment, we are so cramped with an extra 2 people in the home.  Also, I am always so busy with Uni or on placement that I can never find the time to craft. I spend what extra time I have being Mum and a family. It is because of this that all my craft things are stored away and that is where they must stay until we have a bigger place. Hopefully when we move and I become more organised *wink* all these things may become a reality. Let’s see what 2012 holds.